What’s the value of a human life?
“Freedom”
Well, fair enough.Till this day, world has been witness to numerous struggles and battles waged in the name of freedom.
Millions laid down their lives and took others, for the very basic right of an individual, i.e., to live freely.India, as a nation, has had its tryst with the struggle for freedom. I am not sure about the coming generations, but most of us would have read about all that in our history books and seen all that in the form of movies and documentaries.
It indeed is a moving realisation that, there was a world before we stepped in, where one couldn’t speak openly, walk freely. A world of near slavery. A world of oppression. A world of indignity.We all should appreciate the fact that we didnt take birth in such a world. We live in a world which offers freedom of speech and expression. We live in a world where we can do things which people wouldn’t have even dreamt of, pre-independance.
In fact, the only time when we realize that we are blessed with something called “freedom”, is on days like 15th August or 26th January. It’s another thing that some among us fail to appreciate the importance of these days which, to be frank, are the only days when we as a Nation look back at the sacrifices made by our forefathers, who wished to see us- their future generations, live in a free world devoid of slavery, oppression and indignity.
Today, as we march ahead towards tomorrow, there are a set of people, who think that they are yet to attain freedom, in their own words – Jihad.
I still remember myself reading news during the morning assemblies in my school, and as far as I recollect, most of the times, I would find something related to this new form of freedom struggle, to read out to the crowd.
.But what came as a shocker was the news of serial bomb blasts rocking Ahmedabad, the very next day. 17 of them, killing 45 and injuring over 100.45 human lives.For what?Well as per one of the organisation which claimed the responsibilty for the blasts, they were carried out - “In the light of the injustice and wrongs on a specific section of the society in the state in 2002”.
Ok. I have a few questions for the folks responsible:-Among the 45, how many carried out the atrocities in 2002?Among the 45, how many stood in path of your so called “Jihad”?
Among the 45, how many were Hindus, Muslims, Christians, Sikhs...?
Among the 45, how many were directly responsible for what happened in 2002?
I would appreciate if you folks could get us the answers for these questions.It would have been a slightly different case, had you taken down specific people who were directly responsible for the 2002 atrocities, people who pulled the strings from above.Till date there hasn’t been any bomb designed, which would explode in a customised way, killing only people of a specific religion, caste or race, in a heterogenous crowd. Probably the day someone finds it, do get your hands on it.We Indians, feel sorry for all that happened not just in 2002 but in every single instance in the history of our nation till now, where innocent people have lost their lives, for no fault of theirs.
Among the 45 who lost their lives, there has been:-
A mother who had a child waiting at home.
A daughter who was on her way back from school.
A father who was the sole breadowner for the family.
A son who had gone out to get some vegetables for dinner.
All innocent people, with their dreams and aspirations for tomorrow.
Was it all worth it?
Whatever you have done, has it helped your people or your cause in any way?Just take a moment and think, how would have your mother felt on giving birth to you, had she known at that moment that you would end up doing all this in the future. Would she be still happy at bringing such a new life into this world?
People like me can only hope that, someday you realize the fact that, what you are doing is not right. It’s not helping anyone. No matter in whose name, no one has the right to take an innocent life.And yes, one more thing. Irrespective to what you guys have done and plan to do in the future, India as a Nation is not going to kneel in front of you. Decades of struggle has brought India to where it is today, and we as citizens of this Nation will not let such senseless acts of yours, dither us from our spirits. Hope you guys someday realize the value of a human life.
PS: I know whatever I have written here, might not make a difference to people who were behind the Bangalore & Ahmedabad blasts. Still, I wrote this as I couldn't find a better way to air out my frustration over such fanatics.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
If U Think U Can, You are Right
So many times in life we feel depressed and in solitude when we are marred by failure..At that time we dont know how to react..So i thot why not write something Inspirational.. something which i can refer to at times of failure..and feel good and Rejenuvated....So I am posting these success stories of great people in my own words..all the stories i'v come across since my childhood i'v tried to make a Boquet of them.. So when u feel bogged down just read them and I bet u'll feel good.
I think that there are three dimensions to Success... Attitude,Skill And Knowledge. You might have all the Knowledge in the world but and yet fail to achieve anything due to lack of Skills and Attitude.And u know what... the combination of all these three make a Mahatma: The Gandhi
In his First year in the automobile buisness, this man went Bankrupt and two years later his second company also failed...but he did not give up. His third however has done rather well.
Its the right attitude that helped HENRY FORD achieve global success.
While on one hand the constant positive Attitude in the Kennedy family was the key behind John.F.Kennedy's success... on the other hand, the constant negative reinforcements and negative family in fluences form the early childhood made OSWALD grow up to become what he became : the murderer of Kennedy.
Stories of Ramayan & Mahabharata narrated by his mother left an indelible impression on his mind. He developed traits such as courage,sympathy for the poor and urge to do something great. Narendranath left his home ... with a burning desire to do something better and to know INdia better...he went from place to place to do something for the Opressed. He Always said "The Greatest sin is to think Yourself As Weak".He decided to go to the west to seek help for the poor of India and thus gave shape to his life's mission.He was no more the unknown Sanyasi..He was Now Swami Vivekanad-- one of India's all time great spiritual leaders whose teachings even today, inspire millions.
It is like the story of a young boy, while at skool he began to develop the unique concept of a piston. He tried to sell his work to Toyota Corporation bt he ws rejected again and again. He was sent back and his Friends laughed at his crazy attempts.Two years later he got the contract.His passion and belief in what he was doing paid off.When the Japanese Govt. refused to give him concrete to bulid a factory due to war crisis, he along with his team invented a process to make their own concrete. At the end of the war when a gasoline crisis hit Japan,Mr. Honda attached a small motor to his cycle & decided to build a plant that wld build motors for his new invention,the motorcycle.If you think you can,you are right.But think passionately. Passion for what you want to achieve. Enough passion to keep your eyes from wandering away from the goal.Total passion to finally see you through.
In the early 50's officials in the treasury of the arabian Kingdom of Yemen found the main unit of their currency,solid silver coins called Rial, disappearing from circulation.They were all going to Aden,where a mere clerk in British Trading company had put an open order for all of them.He had realised that selling them after melting down would be more valuable than the value Of Rial.He made some money before it was officially stopped.This money added to the money he had already saved helped him to start as a trader in a Polyester yarn. He was Dhirubhai Ambani.. the most powerful buisness tycoon in India. Because he has been Innovative as as well as passionate about his dreams.
It was this urge for being Unique that made a young boy stand at the centre of the Sydney Cricket ground and tell his father "I shall never be satisfied until i play on this ground". And it was not about playing on that Ground but about creating History.He was passionate about his game and ended up with a record career average of 99.6. "The Don" as people used to lovingly call him was one of the greatest batsman better know as Sir Donald Bradman.
Che Guevara,the world's greatest ever revolutionary,always felt "Failure does not necessarily mean that the cause you were fighting for was not worth it". Inspite of being an Argentine, he went to cuba and fought its battle of independence for sake of his Ideology.And then quit top ministerial posts in Cuba to fight for African countries before coming back to Bolivia and meeting his end. Che failed in most of his wars against his Opressers but yet he Achieved always what he wanted. "Che-alive as they never wanted you to be" as they say. He remains today in the heart of millions of people across the world as a revolutionary icon... He dared to have a Utopian dream...and chase it.These people are not easily discouraged by failure.The underlying self-confidence helps them to carry on despite setbacks.They use failure as a learning experience.They never leave the task unfinished.They feel tensed as long as something is Undone.
When you chase your dreams,there can be only two outcomes.Either you make it or you give up.And when things dont go your way and you end up being paralysed from the neck below sonce the age of 14,the easier option is to give up and focus on your pain. Ed Roberts refused to do that . Instead he mastered how to lead a normal life battling passionately against all odds.From his whellchair he became the first disabled director of California State Department Of Rehabilitation.He never gave up and thought "Impossible is not a word in my Dictionary" (as Napolean said).
It is abaout being blind since birth and yet having the conviction that you can make it and becoming a Stevie Wonder. It is about being deaf and composing some of the best and profounder music ever,like Beethoven did.It is about not only being blind and deaf but also being dumb and becoming a Helen Keller.
It is about being kicked out of school and then becoming the world's leading buisness tycoon and changing the way the world works,like Bill Gates has done..
In fact it is about failing in buisness at the age of 21,being defeated in a legislative election at the age of 22, overcoming the death of his sweetheart at the age of 26,losing congressional races at the age of 34 and 36,losing the senatorial race at the age of 45 and again later at the age of 47,and finally becoming the President of United States at the age of 52! It is about Being Abraham Lincoln.All these events which to a common man would seem to be failures -were to Lincoln the stepping stones to a future that he passionately dreamt ofYou can fail your way to Success..Even Napoleon lost one third of all the important battles he fought.They are peole who might fail....Fail 9999 times and yet with a smile say"I learnt 9999 times how not to make an electric bulb....."
And after many more such attempts Thomas Edison did invent the electric bulb and an organisation which still stands tall.Infact he ended up earning more than 1000 patents for inventions including the electric lamp, picture projector etc...These people work not only with their brains. Their eyes,ears,skin alll of them work. You can see the passion at their work.
They know at the tender age of 12 what they want to do for the rest of their lives. Just like this Yugoslavian girl knew. She worked passionately towards her goal.Her bodily needs took second priority over the hunger and abject poverty she saw in people around . She helped the poorer of the poorest people she could.She became the mother to all. Yes,for Mother Teresa Work was often her lunch.
Charles Dickens went through abject poverty and adversity in life. People kept rejecting his work. However,he was sure about what he was aiming for and sice he believed in himself he knew he had a fair chance of making it, he could sustain his passion for writing. Success could not elude him for long,and the major stories and countless short stories he wrote and charecters and places hewrote about will live with us forever. Probably Charles is a Classic example of a person who passionately beleived in two words--- I CAN.
So never get bogged down if you are hit by a Failure instead take it as a challenge and think God has Something good in the making for you..All stories of gr8 people have been plagued by series of failures..Yet they are great..
I wish my story could've been here. The story of a 17 year old boy who in him had this immense passion to be A Designer.. The passion which danced and sung even in his dreams..But i dont think i have the guts to fail so mant times and rise form the Ashes again.. chalo I'll give up this greatness to some one else "ja bachchey aish kar"...........If you know some success stories..please do post them in the comments section.. that would be great.....
I think that there are three dimensions to Success... Attitude,Skill And Knowledge. You might have all the Knowledge in the world but and yet fail to achieve anything due to lack of Skills and Attitude.And u know what... the combination of all these three make a Mahatma: The Gandhi
In his First year in the automobile buisness, this man went Bankrupt and two years later his second company also failed...but he did not give up. His third however has done rather well.
Its the right attitude that helped HENRY FORD achieve global success.
While on one hand the constant positive Attitude in the Kennedy family was the key behind John.F.Kennedy's success... on the other hand, the constant negative reinforcements and negative family in fluences form the early childhood made OSWALD grow up to become what he became : the murderer of Kennedy.
Stories of Ramayan & Mahabharata narrated by his mother left an indelible impression on his mind. He developed traits such as courage,sympathy for the poor and urge to do something great. Narendranath left his home ... with a burning desire to do something better and to know INdia better...he went from place to place to do something for the Opressed. He Always said "The Greatest sin is to think Yourself As Weak".He decided to go to the west to seek help for the poor of India and thus gave shape to his life's mission.He was no more the unknown Sanyasi..He was Now Swami Vivekanad-- one of India's all time great spiritual leaders whose teachings even today, inspire millions.
It is like the story of a young boy, while at skool he began to develop the unique concept of a piston. He tried to sell his work to Toyota Corporation bt he ws rejected again and again. He was sent back and his Friends laughed at his crazy attempts.Two years later he got the contract.His passion and belief in what he was doing paid off.When the Japanese Govt. refused to give him concrete to bulid a factory due to war crisis, he along with his team invented a process to make their own concrete. At the end of the war when a gasoline crisis hit Japan,Mr. Honda attached a small motor to his cycle & decided to build a plant that wld build motors for his new invention,the motorcycle.If you think you can,you are right.But think passionately. Passion for what you want to achieve. Enough passion to keep your eyes from wandering away from the goal.Total passion to finally see you through.
In the early 50's officials in the treasury of the arabian Kingdom of Yemen found the main unit of their currency,solid silver coins called Rial, disappearing from circulation.They were all going to Aden,where a mere clerk in British Trading company had put an open order for all of them.He had realised that selling them after melting down would be more valuable than the value Of Rial.He made some money before it was officially stopped.This money added to the money he had already saved helped him to start as a trader in a Polyester yarn. He was Dhirubhai Ambani.. the most powerful buisness tycoon in India. Because he has been Innovative as as well as passionate about his dreams.
It was this urge for being Unique that made a young boy stand at the centre of the Sydney Cricket ground and tell his father "I shall never be satisfied until i play on this ground". And it was not about playing on that Ground but about creating History.He was passionate about his game and ended up with a record career average of 99.6. "The Don" as people used to lovingly call him was one of the greatest batsman better know as Sir Donald Bradman.
Che Guevara,the world's greatest ever revolutionary,always felt "Failure does not necessarily mean that the cause you were fighting for was not worth it". Inspite of being an Argentine, he went to cuba and fought its battle of independence for sake of his Ideology.And then quit top ministerial posts in Cuba to fight for African countries before coming back to Bolivia and meeting his end. Che failed in most of his wars against his Opressers but yet he Achieved always what he wanted. "Che-alive as they never wanted you to be" as they say. He remains today in the heart of millions of people across the world as a revolutionary icon... He dared to have a Utopian dream...and chase it.These people are not easily discouraged by failure.The underlying self-confidence helps them to carry on despite setbacks.They use failure as a learning experience.They never leave the task unfinished.They feel tensed as long as something is Undone.
When you chase your dreams,there can be only two outcomes.Either you make it or you give up.And when things dont go your way and you end up being paralysed from the neck below sonce the age of 14,the easier option is to give up and focus on your pain. Ed Roberts refused to do that . Instead he mastered how to lead a normal life battling passionately against all odds.From his whellchair he became the first disabled director of California State Department Of Rehabilitation.He never gave up and thought "Impossible is not a word in my Dictionary" (as Napolean said).
It is abaout being blind since birth and yet having the conviction that you can make it and becoming a Stevie Wonder. It is about being deaf and composing some of the best and profounder music ever,like Beethoven did.It is about not only being blind and deaf but also being dumb and becoming a Helen Keller.
It is about being kicked out of school and then becoming the world's leading buisness tycoon and changing the way the world works,like Bill Gates has done..
In fact it is about failing in buisness at the age of 21,being defeated in a legislative election at the age of 22, overcoming the death of his sweetheart at the age of 26,losing congressional races at the age of 34 and 36,losing the senatorial race at the age of 45 and again later at the age of 47,and finally becoming the President of United States at the age of 52! It is about Being Abraham Lincoln.All these events which to a common man would seem to be failures -were to Lincoln the stepping stones to a future that he passionately dreamt ofYou can fail your way to Success..Even Napoleon lost one third of all the important battles he fought.They are peole who might fail....Fail 9999 times and yet with a smile say"I learnt 9999 times how not to make an electric bulb....."
And after many more such attempts Thomas Edison did invent the electric bulb and an organisation which still stands tall.Infact he ended up earning more than 1000 patents for inventions including the electric lamp, picture projector etc...These people work not only with their brains. Their eyes,ears,skin alll of them work. You can see the passion at their work.
They know at the tender age of 12 what they want to do for the rest of their lives. Just like this Yugoslavian girl knew. She worked passionately towards her goal.Her bodily needs took second priority over the hunger and abject poverty she saw in people around . She helped the poorer of the poorest people she could.She became the mother to all. Yes,for Mother Teresa Work was often her lunch.
Charles Dickens went through abject poverty and adversity in life. People kept rejecting his work. However,he was sure about what he was aiming for and sice he believed in himself he knew he had a fair chance of making it, he could sustain his passion for writing. Success could not elude him for long,and the major stories and countless short stories he wrote and charecters and places hewrote about will live with us forever. Probably Charles is a Classic example of a person who passionately beleived in two words--- I CAN.
So never get bogged down if you are hit by a Failure instead take it as a challenge and think God has Something good in the making for you..All stories of gr8 people have been plagued by series of failures..Yet they are great..
I wish my story could've been here. The story of a 17 year old boy who in him had this immense passion to be A Designer.. The passion which danced and sung even in his dreams..But i dont think i have the guts to fail so mant times and rise form the Ashes again.. chalo I'll give up this greatness to some one else "ja bachchey aish kar"...........If you know some success stories..please do post them in the comments section.. that would be great.....
Friday, June 20, 2008
Life is a Sphynx
Sometimes it makes me wonder... how life can change!!! few days ago i was crying and cribbing all over the place because of my NiFt result... i thot life has reached the nadir and dere's nothin to grab... it seemed as if i am d biggest moron on this earth.... I Used to keep a very Pathetic view about myself as a person.. I Began feeling like i'm a burden on this earth and my parents..
whenEver i used to see beggars on streets or Vendors selling scraps i imagined myself in their place and used to think "Well Dude!! this is wat ur gonna do in the coming time!!" .. It seemed as if all doors have been shut down and i'm sulking in a dark cave... I used to hate the company of people ...i became an introvert..I stopped watching soccer and browsing orkut... I hated to attend my friend's calls...
But now.. My hotel management result came .. I got 65th rank all over india among 5 lakh students that gave the exam,.... I'm gonna study in one of the most coveted college of hotel management in asia...Life seems has taken a 360 degree turn... I love myself now.. every quirk of mine seems so unique and lovely...i admire myself in front of the mirror... I enjoy the rain drops screaching my face and the cool breeze giving me a spa.....Life has got all its colours back
It now has a different meaning...OMG i'm so excited about the college... it will be Freaking fun out there...
I think now whatever happens ....happens for a reason..Maybe the almighty wanted me to do Hm ..maybe this field has loads in store for me.... maybe this is d platform for my talent.... but 1 thing's for sure i'll never let the "Creative Rupi" inside me die... i will carry on sketching and designing...they are inseperable parts of my life...i cant even imagine my life without colours now.. i love their company...I am very happy for my friends now..every1 is setteled now.. now each one has to paddle his own cannoe....
But i'm really ooking forward 2 hotel managmnt... it'll be hell of a fun to interact with myraid forms of people coming form various arts and cultures ... it'll be kind of a symbiosis...
Last night Portugal were knocked out of euro....i felt bad..Albiet i was supporting spain but i had a soft corner for portugal some where...now spain have an uphill task against italy on sunday (fingers crossed).... and whats up with this prick ronaldo man!! he's so indecisive cant even decide b/w united and madrid?? strange i think he's another gold digger like becks..its better if he leaves old trafford now...he's lost his group of fans anywayzz...
i saw united's 2008-09 away kit today..its awesome man white shirt and sky blue shorts... loved it,, now i want to get my hands on in asap..
Hey i'm going to visit ihm mumbai tomorrow along with my friend mihir.. i promise it'll be one hell of a spectacle!!.... anything else i forgot to tell??? hmmmmmmmmmmm........ i saw the promo of Akshay's singh is King today...it was awesome man..katrina was looking Au Hot... looking forward to this movie... hey Rabbi is coming 2moro to goregaon hub... i need to go there guys... i love his songs..
ok its 5 15 am now.. i need 2 sleep... byeee guyss
whenEver i used to see beggars on streets or Vendors selling scraps i imagined myself in their place and used to think "Well Dude!! this is wat ur gonna do in the coming time!!" .. It seemed as if all doors have been shut down and i'm sulking in a dark cave... I used to hate the company of people ...i became an introvert..I stopped watching soccer and browsing orkut... I hated to attend my friend's calls...
But now.. My hotel management result came .. I got 65th rank all over india among 5 lakh students that gave the exam,.... I'm gonna study in one of the most coveted college of hotel management in asia...Life seems has taken a 360 degree turn... I love myself now.. every quirk of mine seems so unique and lovely...i admire myself in front of the mirror... I enjoy the rain drops screaching my face and the cool breeze giving me a spa.....Life has got all its colours back
It now has a different meaning...OMG i'm so excited about the college... it will be Freaking fun out there...
I think now whatever happens ....happens for a reason..Maybe the almighty wanted me to do Hm ..maybe this field has loads in store for me.... maybe this is d platform for my talent.... but 1 thing's for sure i'll never let the "Creative Rupi" inside me die... i will carry on sketching and designing...they are inseperable parts of my life...i cant even imagine my life without colours now.. i love their company...I am very happy for my friends now..every1 is setteled now.. now each one has to paddle his own cannoe....
But i'm really ooking forward 2 hotel managmnt... it'll be hell of a fun to interact with myraid forms of people coming form various arts and cultures ... it'll be kind of a symbiosis...
Last night Portugal were knocked out of euro....i felt bad..Albiet i was supporting spain but i had a soft corner for portugal some where...now spain have an uphill task against italy on sunday (fingers crossed).... and whats up with this prick ronaldo man!! he's so indecisive cant even decide b/w united and madrid?? strange i think he's another gold digger like becks..its better if he leaves old trafford now...he's lost his group of fans anywayzz...
i saw united's 2008-09 away kit today..its awesome man white shirt and sky blue shorts... loved it,, now i want to get my hands on in asap..
Hey i'm going to visit ihm mumbai tomorrow along with my friend mihir.. i promise it'll be one hell of a spectacle!!.... anything else i forgot to tell??? hmmmmmmmmmmm........ i saw the promo of Akshay's singh is King today...it was awesome man..katrina was looking Au Hot... looking forward to this movie... hey Rabbi is coming 2moro to goregaon hub... i need to go there guys... i love his songs..
ok its 5 15 am now.. i need 2 sleep... byeee guyss
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Silly Me
I Did a mistake today...i'm so dumb... i fought with mom and dad ..i told them that i want to stay for an extra day in delhi coz i want to meet my friends....mom said no even dad said so but i didnt listen.. i ignored the advices of mom and dad for my friends..the same parents who have supported me for 17 years..the same parents who have felt the pain when i was grieved..and what did i give in return?
i aksed my friends whether they'll be able to meet me or not? and guess what i got as a reply
One said that he/she can meet me for some time whereas the other one still cant decide whether she/he will turn up or not...
i am so dumb man!! see i fought with my parents for my friends and what i got in return!! huh... i never expected this rothem... perhaps if they would have come at my place.. i wld hav had gone mad..i wld hav had accompanied them to all possible places but you see this is the disadvantage of being good to others... one should never expect much from anyone in this world.. this friends and all stuff is all farce ..eventually your family members will stand by you..no one else will do so.. every one will search their comfort levels and then act..
now tomorrow morning i'm going to say sorry to mom and dad for showing dissent and i'll cancel my reservation and make that a day earlier!!!
i aksed my friends whether they'll be able to meet me or not? and guess what i got as a reply
One said that he/she can meet me for some time whereas the other one still cant decide whether she/he will turn up or not...
i am so dumb man!! see i fought with my parents for my friends and what i got in return!! huh... i never expected this rothem... perhaps if they would have come at my place.. i wld hav had gone mad..i wld hav had accompanied them to all possible places but you see this is the disadvantage of being good to others... one should never expect much from anyone in this world.. this friends and all stuff is all farce ..eventually your family members will stand by you..no one else will do so.. every one will search their comfort levels and then act..
now tomorrow morning i'm going to say sorry to mom and dad for showing dissent and i'll cancel my reservation and make that a day earlier!!!
Enigma
"Life"...what is life?? For some people life is all about earning money...For some its all about chasing their dreams...Some think life's all about Giving and Sharing.......More the people, more their views on life!!But the eternal goal of everone's life is Satisfaction... but still we arent satisfied with what all we have ... we always want more money,love,care...and a myraid things.. but the question still remains "why arent We Satisfied?"well this really makes me confused....
"how can i become Satisfied??"... i have so much to thank god for caring parents,lovely siblings, Awesome friends, A sound health & wealth.....and a plethora of vanity stuff... but still I Expect God to give more... and whenever i dont get something i curse god for depriving me of it ...but i forget i have so much to thank for.... here also the BottomLine Seems Satisfaction....
Here I am lying in my room on the bed and typing all this stuff on my laptop.... i know i can afford the luxury of sleeping late and getting up late coz i dont have any work to do
but what about all those people who sleep on footpaths?? who dont even knw whether they'll see the rising sun or not?These people know that they have to get up early and then search for a job which could pay them on daily basis... they dont know whats going to happen tomoro!!
But still they are happy and i'm not....... Still they thank god for what they have and I Crib for small small things.. Why does this happen?? I've tried to make myself understand a lot of times but still things arent working!!
When I gave my Nift Exam i used to pray 24/7 to God to help me get through... I Used to visit Temple on a daily basis.. but when the result came and i didnt get through I Cursed and Abused the Same God..Infact god didnt even had a hand in all that which did happen... it was my own faults or watever u say That Hindered me from getting through..... I think i failed the test of God or should i say I proved that i am amongst those million people who go to god only in times of crisis... if i dont care for god so why should he care for me?? why should he help me in life whwn i go to him only at times i'm in trouble!! Have i ever said and thanked god for all that he has given me?? NO....Infact i complain more than i thank for....even when i got 65th rank in IHM the 1st thing i did was not THNKING GOD.... :(
To be continued............
"how can i become Satisfied??"... i have so much to thank god for caring parents,lovely siblings, Awesome friends, A sound health & wealth.....and a plethora of vanity stuff... but still I Expect God to give more... and whenever i dont get something i curse god for depriving me of it ...but i forget i have so much to thank for.... here also the BottomLine Seems Satisfaction....
Here I am lying in my room on the bed and typing all this stuff on my laptop.... i know i can afford the luxury of sleeping late and getting up late coz i dont have any work to do
but what about all those people who sleep on footpaths?? who dont even knw whether they'll see the rising sun or not?These people know that they have to get up early and then search for a job which could pay them on daily basis... they dont know whats going to happen tomoro!!
But still they are happy and i'm not....... Still they thank god for what they have and I Crib for small small things.. Why does this happen?? I've tried to make myself understand a lot of times but still things arent working!!
When I gave my Nift Exam i used to pray 24/7 to God to help me get through... I Used to visit Temple on a daily basis.. but when the result came and i didnt get through I Cursed and Abused the Same God..Infact god didnt even had a hand in all that which did happen... it was my own faults or watever u say That Hindered me from getting through..... I think i failed the test of God or should i say I proved that i am amongst those million people who go to god only in times of crisis... if i dont care for god so why should he care for me?? why should he help me in life whwn i go to him only at times i'm in trouble!! Have i ever said and thanked god for all that he has given me?? NO....Infact i complain more than i thank for....even when i got 65th rank in IHM the 1st thing i did was not THNKING GOD.... :(
To be continued............
Friday, June 13, 2008
Melancholy
It was 21st may i think (shit man i always mess up these dates..Pity me).. i was at a Resturant with My parents.. i was having an Ice-cream (butter scotch yummmmmm) at that point of time.. suddenly the phone rang.... "Bulaa Ki Jaanaa Main kaun"...it was shuchi... "Hello" i said!
Ok lets make it a real Telephonic Converstaion..its fun that way...
Me-"Hello!"
Shuchi-"Hi Rupi!"
Me-"Hi yaar"
Shuchi--"Kahan hai tu abhi?"
Me-"Kuch nai..jst at a restuarnt with my parents"
Shuchi-"Fir toh tera Result baad Mein hi pata chalega"
Me-"What Result kiska? Nift ka Result aa gaya?"
Shuchi-Haan Abhi aaya hai
Me-"Tu online hai abhi...can u please check my result??"
Shuchi--"haan Bol"
Me--" Roll no. 442910170....Form no. 550616...jaldi bata"
Shuchi(after some time)---"yaar hang ho raha hai computer .."
Me- "yaar fir se check kar...Jaldi bata meri phat rahi hai"
Shuchi--"fir hang ho gaya yaar"
Me--"yaar agar nai hua hai..toh bata de ki nai hua tera"
Shuchi --- No Response (keyboard sound in d background)
Me--"Tera kyaa hua??"
Shuchi---"337 (shu dont kill me if d rank is wrong) aai hai"
Me--"yaar mazaak toh nai kar rai hai naa?? agar nai hua toh bata de nai hua"
Shuchi--rank is very low:( : ( : (
Me--Shit
shuchi--Sorry yaar
Me--Fir se dekh kahin galti toh nai hui
Shuchi--Sorry yaar likh ke aa raha hai rank is low aur tera naam"
Me--Pakka tu mazaak toh nai kar rahi??
Shuchi--Sorry yaar.sahi bol rahi hoon
Me--ok byee
Shuchi---byee Sorry yaar
Hey i went insane at that time.. iwas at a public place ..tears trickled down my eyes.. i didnt want to cry there... i thot shuchi might be playing a prank on me as she usually does.. how is it possible that i'm not even selected??... my dad offered me Cold Drink I said with a heavy heart "NO"..
I said mom dad u continue...i'm not feeling well.. i want to relax in the car..the ice cream i was eating seemed like made up of iron it was so hard 2 digest it..i was completely shattered..
I sat in the car but didnt cry,,, i saw a hydrogen balloon man inflating balloons.. i kept on watchinf and staring at him from my window...seeing the colours of the balloons a tear trickled my eye and reached my lips.... then came mom and dad...i wiped it off and occupied the window seat.. i was crying all through the way back home... i dont remember wat mom and dad wr talking at dat time...i was lost in myself...tears came running down... mom said --"u crying??" i said--"no mom i reckon sm insect entered my eye"....the car stopped in front of a temple mom said --"u want to come with me to the temple"....i was cursing god like hell i said NO..i didnt even look at the temple..i was jst so loathed with god... we were dere for 10 minutes and gosh i didn even look at d temple even once,....we reached home.. i went quickly to my room and chkd the result... i was hoping a miracle.. out came the result in red low rank...i switchd off the pc from the main power switch and went to sleep.. mom dad knew smthing was wrong bt i said i'm not feeling well.. i lay flat on my bed and i was like.. tearing my clothes and pulling my hair.. i cried like hell in front of god..i hit my head against the wall and banged the floor.. i threw my shoes here and there... i sulked under the quilt and cried the whole night..i imagined all the dreams dat i once dreamt of wont be comnig true..the nift campus i loved will not witness my presence any more.. i didnt sleep the whole night ..i cried like hell..
the next morning i got up mom again asked "Is evrything all right?" i said yes again.. iwent to the bathroom and cried for 3 hours there.....
i wanted 2 tell her ki mom ur son is a bloody looser he has lost it all..bt i didnt have d guts.. wenever i went close i saw the happy face of my parents who care for me so much.. i didn wanted to hurt their emotions and feelings!!
atlast i gathered courage and said Mom "Mera NIFt rank bahut kam hai"! and i cuddled her like anything she said dsoeb matter son jst look ahead in life... bt i didnt knew nything i cried d whole after noon in her lap..
ok too much of this sad story now... hey i got to knw wat frndz mean during this time.. my friends supportd me so much i am very grateful to them..they provided me solace really thanx a lot i owe a debt to you people..you people are so so lovely thanks god thankss
nywayss its quite late now ab the rest story i'll write later getcha sleep now
happy blogging
Ok lets make it a real Telephonic Converstaion..its fun that way...
Me-"Hello!"
Shuchi-"Hi Rupi!"
Me-"Hi yaar"
Shuchi--"Kahan hai tu abhi?"
Me-"Kuch nai..jst at a restuarnt with my parents"
Shuchi-"Fir toh tera Result baad Mein hi pata chalega"
Me-"What Result kiska? Nift ka Result aa gaya?"
Shuchi-Haan Abhi aaya hai
Me-"Tu online hai abhi...can u please check my result??"
Shuchi--"haan Bol"
Me--" Roll no. 442910170....Form no. 550616...jaldi bata"
Shuchi(after some time)---"yaar hang ho raha hai computer .."
Me- "yaar fir se check kar...Jaldi bata meri phat rahi hai"
Shuchi--"fir hang ho gaya yaar"
Me--"yaar agar nai hua hai..toh bata de ki nai hua tera"
Shuchi --- No Response (keyboard sound in d background)
Me--"Tera kyaa hua??"
Shuchi---"337 (shu dont kill me if d rank is wrong) aai hai"
Me--"yaar mazaak toh nai kar rai hai naa?? agar nai hua toh bata de nai hua"
Shuchi--rank is very low:( : ( : (
Me--Shit
shuchi--Sorry yaar
Me--Fir se dekh kahin galti toh nai hui
Shuchi--Sorry yaar likh ke aa raha hai rank is low aur tera naam"
Me--Pakka tu mazaak toh nai kar rahi??
Shuchi--Sorry yaar.sahi bol rahi hoon
Me--ok byee
Shuchi---byee Sorry yaar
Hey i went insane at that time.. iwas at a public place ..tears trickled down my eyes.. i didnt want to cry there... i thot shuchi might be playing a prank on me as she usually does.. how is it possible that i'm not even selected??... my dad offered me Cold Drink I said with a heavy heart "NO"..
I said mom dad u continue...i'm not feeling well.. i want to relax in the car..the ice cream i was eating seemed like made up of iron it was so hard 2 digest it..i was completely shattered..
I sat in the car but didnt cry,,, i saw a hydrogen balloon man inflating balloons.. i kept on watchinf and staring at him from my window...seeing the colours of the balloons a tear trickled my eye and reached my lips.... then came mom and dad...i wiped it off and occupied the window seat.. i was crying all through the way back home... i dont remember wat mom and dad wr talking at dat time...i was lost in myself...tears came running down... mom said --"u crying??" i said--"no mom i reckon sm insect entered my eye"....the car stopped in front of a temple mom said --"u want to come with me to the temple"....i was cursing god like hell i said NO..i didnt even look at the temple..i was jst so loathed with god... we were dere for 10 minutes and gosh i didn even look at d temple even once,....we reached home.. i went quickly to my room and chkd the result... i was hoping a miracle.. out came the result in red low rank...i switchd off the pc from the main power switch and went to sleep.. mom dad knew smthing was wrong bt i said i'm not feeling well.. i lay flat on my bed and i was like.. tearing my clothes and pulling my hair.. i cried like hell in front of god..i hit my head against the wall and banged the floor.. i threw my shoes here and there... i sulked under the quilt and cried the whole night..i imagined all the dreams dat i once dreamt of wont be comnig true..the nift campus i loved will not witness my presence any more.. i didnt sleep the whole night ..i cried like hell..
the next morning i got up mom again asked "Is evrything all right?" i said yes again.. iwent to the bathroom and cried for 3 hours there.....
i wanted 2 tell her ki mom ur son is a bloody looser he has lost it all..bt i didnt have d guts.. wenever i went close i saw the happy face of my parents who care for me so much.. i didn wanted to hurt their emotions and feelings!!
atlast i gathered courage and said Mom "Mera NIFt rank bahut kam hai"! and i cuddled her like anything she said dsoeb matter son jst look ahead in life... bt i didnt knew nything i cried d whole after noon in her lap..
ok too much of this sad story now... hey i got to knw wat frndz mean during this time.. my friends supportd me so much i am very grateful to them..they provided me solace really thanx a lot i owe a debt to you people..you people are so so lovely thanks god thankss
nywayss its quite late now ab the rest story i'll write later getcha sleep now
happy blogging
My days Of HardWork
Hey this Blog stuff is too good man! Its real fun! Kudos to the Gentleman who invented this (read gentelman.. i know it cant be a woman..they dont have so much brain you see!!)
I met Sanmit on Orkut..we both used to live in Jabalpur earlier but we didnt knew each other .. he was also Preapring for Nift (it pains a lot to type this word...but who cares let it jst piss off)
Sanmit was one heck of a kind hearted fella..we used 2 discuss a lot and had views on everything under the sun..he told me he;s also preparing for Law...
I met shuchi on yahoo..one day i got an IM "can u plzz add me?"... i thot it to be another glory hunting Muppet..u knw dose raunchy gals who crave for friendship!! (lolzz sorry shu not meant for ya.. u are toh Very Pious as ur name... ) I think i said a little too much :D i always do :)
I met Vish On 25th December (yippy i remember the date..it was christmas eve dat day).. we had a chat on yahoo... she seemed a studious bookworm man! one hell of a Bibliophile (incase u dont knw the meaning of this word,, Not My Problem!!)....
I met akriti on orkut in my Obnoxious community..she also seemed a very sweet girl... i even met vaibhav in the same community ... my 1st impression was "This Guy Is a Moron!!" (Sorry Vai bt i always do speak the truth ) bur wen through his posts i came to know dat he has cleard IIT (read Thrice its IIT ) i was like "Slap Yourself Rupansh"!
I met Akansha Aka akki Aka dii Aka Sis in sm conference on yahoo ....ohh yeah Conferences lolzz We used to have so much of fun u knw... it was one hell of a feast! ..we all used 2 come 2 discuss about studiess bt lolzzz we always used 2 discuss all real values minus STUDIES....
Akki initially thought i was a girl... (How can u ever Do that yaar??) ...she used to find me irritating initially (wats new in dat..ppl still find me like that) but now we share a healthy bond between us... Really Lord thank you for such good friends.. but what sort of justice is this ?? every girl seems to make me her brother lolzzzz i aint a brother - material :D
We used to discuss about movies....politics..PJ's....Sports(atleast i used to...vo baat alag thii ki no one used to listen)...and everything under the sun Except U Knw WAT!! (if u still dont knw ....God Save u ..ur such a dumbo)...
Ohhh Shit man The Topic was "My days of hardwork" and what did i turn up explaing ALL SHIT!!... i used to do a lot of hard work...read d whole dictonary...loved 2 do maths... and yeah buisness Domain... i was like an encyclopedia about Fashion :D.....i also practised a lot of sketching!!
I met Sanmit on Orkut..we both used to live in Jabalpur earlier but we didnt knew each other .. he was also Preapring for Nift (it pains a lot to type this word...but who cares let it jst piss off)
Sanmit was one heck of a kind hearted fella..we used 2 discuss a lot and had views on everything under the sun..he told me he;s also preparing for Law...
I met shuchi on yahoo..one day i got an IM "can u plzz add me?"... i thot it to be another glory hunting Muppet..u knw dose raunchy gals who crave for friendship!! (lolzz sorry shu not meant for ya.. u are toh Very Pious as ur name... ) I think i said a little too much :D i always do :)
I met Vish On 25th December (yippy i remember the date..it was christmas eve dat day).. we had a chat on yahoo... she seemed a studious bookworm man! one hell of a Bibliophile (incase u dont knw the meaning of this word,, Not My Problem!!)....
I met akriti on orkut in my Obnoxious community..she also seemed a very sweet girl... i even met vaibhav in the same community ... my 1st impression was "This Guy Is a Moron!!" (Sorry Vai bt i always do speak the truth ) bur wen through his posts i came to know dat he has cleard IIT (read Thrice its IIT ) i was like "Slap Yourself Rupansh"!
I met Akansha Aka akki Aka dii Aka Sis in sm conference on yahoo ....ohh yeah Conferences lolzz We used to have so much of fun u knw... it was one hell of a feast! ..we all used 2 come 2 discuss about studiess bt lolzzz we always used 2 discuss all real values minus STUDIES....
Akki initially thought i was a girl... (How can u ever Do that yaar??) ...she used to find me irritating initially (wats new in dat..ppl still find me like that) but now we share a healthy bond between us... Really Lord thank you for such good friends.. but what sort of justice is this ?? every girl seems to make me her brother lolzzzz i aint a brother - material :D
We used to discuss about movies....politics..PJ's....Sports(atleast i used to...vo baat alag thii ki no one used to listen)...and everything under the sun Except U Knw WAT!! (if u still dont knw ....God Save u ..ur such a dumbo)...
Ohhh Shit man The Topic was "My days of hardwork" and what did i turn up explaing ALL SHIT!!... i used to do a lot of hard work...read d whole dictonary...loved 2 do maths... and yeah buisness Domain... i was like an encyclopedia about Fashion :D.....i also practised a lot of sketching!!
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