Melancholy

It was 21st may i think (shit man i always mess up these dates..Pity me).. i was at a Resturant with My parents.. i was having an Ice-cream (butter scotch yummmmmm) at that point of time.. suddenly the phone rang.... "Bulaa Ki Jaanaa Main kaun"...it was shuchi... "Hello" i said!
Ok lets make it a real Telephonic Converstaion..its fun that way...
Me-"Hello!"
Shuchi-"Hi Rupi!"
Me-"Hi yaar"
Shuchi--"Kahan hai tu abhi?"
Me-"Kuch nai..jst at a restuarnt with my parents"
Shuchi-"Fir toh tera Result baad Mein hi pata chalega"
Me-"What Result kiska? Nift ka Result aa gaya?"
Shuchi-Haan Abhi aaya hai
Me-"Tu online hai abhi...can u please check my result??"
Shuchi--"haan Bol"
Me--" Roll no. 442910170....Form no. 550616...jaldi bata"
Shuchi(after some time)---"yaar hang ho raha hai computer .."
Me- "yaar fir se check kar...Jaldi bata meri phat rahi hai"
Shuchi--"fir hang ho gaya yaar"
Me--"yaar agar nai hua hai..toh bata de ki nai hua tera"
Shuchi --- No Response (keyboard sound in d background)
Me--"Tera kyaa hua??"
Shuchi---"337 (shu dont kill me if d rank is wrong) aai hai"
Me--"yaar mazaak toh nai kar rai hai naa?? agar nai hua toh bata de nai hua"
Shuchi--rank is very low:( : ( : (
Me--Shit
shuchi--Sorry yaar
Me--Fir se dekh kahin galti toh nai hui
Shuchi--Sorry yaar likh ke aa raha hai rank is low aur tera naam"
Me--Pakka tu mazaak toh nai kar rahi??
Shuchi--Sorry yaar.sahi bol rahi hoon
Me--ok byee
Shuchi---byee Sorry yaar

Hey i went insane at that time.. iwas at a public place ..tears trickled down my eyes.. i didnt want to cry there... i thot shuchi might be playing a prank on me as she usually does.. how is it possible that i'm not even selected??... my dad offered me Cold Drink I said with a heavy heart "NO"..
I said mom dad u continue...i'm not feeling well.. i want to relax in the car..the ice cream i was eating seemed like made up of iron it was so hard 2 digest it..i was completely shattered..
I sat in the car but didnt cry,,, i saw a hydrogen balloon man inflating balloons.. i kept on watchinf and staring at him from my window...seeing the colours of the balloons a tear trickled my eye and reached my lips.... then came mom and dad...i wiped it off and occupied the window seat.. i was crying all through the way back home... i dont remember wat mom and dad wr talking at dat time...i was lost in myself...tears came running down... mom said --"u crying??" i said--"no mom i reckon sm insect entered my eye"....the car stopped in front of a temple mom said --"u want to come with me to the temple"....i was cursing god like hell i said NO..i didnt even look at the temple..i was jst so loathed with god... we were dere for 10 minutes and gosh i didn even look at d temple even once,....we reached home.. i went quickly to my room and chkd the result... i was hoping a miracle.. out came the result in red low rank...i switchd off the pc from the main power switch and went to sleep.. mom dad knew smthing was wrong bt i said i'm not feeling well.. i lay flat on my bed and i was like.. tearing my clothes and pulling my hair.. i cried like hell in front of god..i hit my head against the wall and banged the floor.. i threw my shoes here and there... i sulked under the quilt and cried the whole night..i imagined all the dreams dat i once dreamt of wont be comnig true..the nift campus i loved will not witness my presence any more.. i didnt sleep the whole night ..i cried like hell..
the next morning i got up mom again asked "Is evrything all right?" i said yes again.. iwent to the bathroom and cried for 3 hours there.....
i wanted 2 tell her ki mom ur son is a bloody looser he has lost it all..bt i didnt have d guts.. wenever i went close i saw the happy face of my parents who care for me so much.. i didn wanted to hurt their emotions and feelings!!
atlast i gathered courage and said Mom "Mera NIFt rank bahut kam hai"! and i cuddled her like anything she said dsoeb matter son jst look ahead in life... bt i didnt knew nything i cried d whole after noon in her lap..
ok too much of this sad story now... hey i got to knw wat frndz mean during this time.. my friends supportd me so much i am very grateful to them..they provided me solace really thanx a lot i owe a debt to you people..you people are so so lovely thanks god thankss

nywayss its quite late now ab the rest story i'll write later getcha sleep now
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