Enigma

"Life"...what is life?? For some people life is all about earning money...For some its all about chasing their dreams...Some think life's all about Giving and Sharing.......More the people, more their views on life!!But the eternal goal of everone's life is Satisfaction... but still we arent satisfied with what all we have ... we always want more money,love,care...and a myraid things.. but the question still remains "why arent We Satisfied?"well this really makes me confused....
"how can i become Satisfied??"... i have so much to thank god for caring parents,lovely siblings, Awesome friends, A sound health & wealth.....and a plethora of vanity stuff... but still I Expect God to give more... and whenever i dont get something i curse god for depriving me of it ...but i forget i have so much to thank for.... here also the BottomLine Seems Satisfaction....
Here I am lying in my room on the bed and typing all this stuff on my laptop.... i know i can afford the luxury of sleeping late and getting up late coz i dont have any work to do
but what about all those people who sleep on footpaths?? who dont even knw whether they'll see the rising sun or not?These people know that they have to get up early and then search for a job which could pay them on daily basis... they dont know whats going to happen tomoro!!
But still they are happy and i'm not....... Still they thank god for what they have and I Crib for small small things.. Why does this happen?? I've tried to make myself understand a lot of times but still things arent working!!
When I gave my Nift Exam i used to pray 24/7 to God to help me get through... I Used to visit Temple on a daily basis.. but when the result came and i didnt get through I Cursed and Abused the Same God..Infact god didnt even had a hand in all that which did happen... it was my own faults or watever u say That Hindered me from getting through..... I think i failed the test of God or should i say I proved that i am amongst those million people who go to god only in times of crisis... if i dont care for god so why should he care for me?? why should he help me in life whwn i go to him only at times i'm in trouble!! Have i ever said and thanked god for all that he has given me?? NO....Infact i complain more than i thank for....even when i got 65th rank in IHM the 1st thing i did was not THNKING GOD.... :(

To be continued............